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Waking up that morning,I got a text on my phone reading out loudly in bold letters;

“Hi, I know you are single. And am also sure that you have no secret admirer in mind.Yeah! I  also have it guaranteed that you don’t want to be in any relationship any soon. Well that’s okay. I want you know that, whenever you feel like loving someone, lemme be the first priority. I want to be your first love. I know this sounds awkward and kiddish. Maybe you’re thinking am a ‘desperado’ but ‘Nop’. Please grant my solemn wish.”

Lord gracious! I hadn’t seen this coming my way. I rose up from my bed, sat on my pillow. Crossed my legs and reread the ‘solemn wish’. It was real.But how? How could a stranger know that am single?-I had no secret admirer and didn’t want to be in any relationship any soon? I couldn’t remember telling anyone about my  ‘Love line’. My curiosity grew wider beyond my limits and I definitely needed to sort things out. Maybe this was it.Love.

I raised my fingers. Moved them in sequences across my qwerty keyboard and begun to type a reply. But something was strange about this stranger. I rarely reply to unknown senders. But here i was typing a reply. I must say this was more special than i thought. The thrill was unusual.

I typed word by word, making sure all my telepathic engines were functioning.No mood swings. I mean am not the only who behaves this way.We are many out there. That moment you get a text from a stranger and they sound so polite – you even get interested in wanting to meet them in person. You find yourself  typing skeptically  in one single-text-message. Excluding nothing. I know you do it too. Don’t you? Ha! Ha! Ha!.

The thrill was actually incredible because I sunk deeply into it. Typed skeptically  including all the appropriate emojis. Then I realized that I even had an imaginary person in my mind. The more I typed, the more  I saw myself in a face to face conversation with the stranger. Finally I was done typing. Raised my thumb to tap the ‘send’ key. Suddenly  something held me back. Stupid fears begun to creep into my conscience. I could feel chills down my spine. But why was I scared of tapping the ‘send’ key?

My fears weren’t abnormal. Everyone goes through them once in a lifetime. First love fears. They exist in the whole world to everyone. Black or white. Literate or illiterate. Tall or short. As long as you have a heart that knows how to reciprocate love – There’s no vaccination against  first love fears.

Fears that makes everyone  dream of loving again blur. The reason being each time you want to love again, fears creep into you. You  get into a fix same as mine. Love is here, you’ve already typed a reply but you simply can’t type the ‘send’ key. You begin to remember of how once you met a stranger, made them so special. Gave them a chance to teach you all the strange-good things in love. Don’t get emotional. Read on. A total stranger gets to know who you are, your pros and cons. How to kiss, hug and cuddle up more than little puppies. Things that no one else would ever teach you in life. You know what am talking about right? This stranger slowly  becomes your addiction and probably the only reason you need your battery fully charged 24/7. When your demons rise up, they become the best exorcist. Interesting isn’t it?

Then one day the flames become more than an inferno. You go through the valley of death Itself. You learn that you have to be strong to overcome it.Your small heaven becomes a hell of a something. You learn to fight battles that weren’t ever in your schedule. A warrior.Whatever used to be love becomes hate – You know understand better why people say,

“The line between love and hate is very small”

As if that’s not enough you begin to battle yourself, Whenever you see them. Your heartbeat changes  and your breath grows shorter. You realize it’s all gone now.

But NO! It’s not. Do you know what makes you a unique person? Your ability to make changes. A real lover knows that one person is enough for them. Even after all the battles, if you realize that they are all you need – Go for it.Love them to eternity.

True love isn’t scared of flames.It swallows all tornadoes and floats on the storms.

Love them forever.

Xoxo.

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I still remember how she looked straight into my eyes.Boldly blinking severally.It was the same kind of look. Obviously the  impression given when one is  about to speak out their hearts;Drowsy and shy but with a promising calmness in it.After what i opted to be a sigh into breaking the ice,her hands slithered from my back  and  slowly rested behind my head.I must say she was so learned in her facial expression and this – was definitely more than i thought.I was scared yeah!Not because something bad could happen- I was  beginning to feel insecure.Do you ever get into a stupid tension and yet you know there’s  nothing  wrong? That’s my case here.Finally she moved closer ,held my right ear and whispered gently;

“JJ i know you are a serious  mess,a weirdo and probably a complicated idiot.That doesn’t matter to me.Listen carefully.You are the best beast for me.”

For a few moments i was numb,Everything seemed like a dream until when i felt her tender fingers wipe my tears.She might have had a few long nails but she was carefully not to bruise my face.For the first time i shed tears of sincerity.I personally couldn’t imagine that someone would treasure me  that much.It was  real.

If am trying to remember when it happened,then i must be joking.Who would try to forget  their most memorable days? I can’t. You are a real example of what true love can’t do.Die.

Today here i am pen and paper on my desk.The candle light is fading and it’s wax melting slowly by slowly.I feel i need to write more of that experience buy why?.Maybe memories are haunting me but what i definetly know is that, I won’t forget it any sooner. The hidden fact is that, nothing ever dissapears completely and nothing goes to waste. You didn’t get it clear enough;Things born of the heart never fade.You are never going to be dead to me.

Alive forever.Thank you.

My grandfather lived a longer life than i would ever do, Yeah! It’s the fact and you know it too.Want to know why? Because he ate no junkies, Had no play stations , watched nothing sinful and lastly didn’t know what emojis meant from the first day of his life. Does that make sense now-why you won’t live old enough to be like your grandfather? Well it sounds bad but that’s the truth.

But there’s still hope,Yeah! In fact you’ve got all it takes to live more than your old buddy.Wanna know why? In this century the only thing that hasn’t been made is “life”. So be guaranteed it’s almost possible to make years hah-aha! exaggeration at hand oops!

The 21st century boy wakes up late in the morning, the first thing he does is to beat up his alarm clock, secondly reaches out his hand to find his phone in his blanket, once he gets it, trust me he might even spend the rest of his day in bed-But he would definitely feel hungry(That forces everyone to wake up).

He needs to now how many likes he has on Facebook, how many more followers to get on Instagram and not to forget-How to get the latest sneakers in town.It’s every boys’ dream.

To be continued………..