John articles

I want to confess,
Yes!
And I actually want to speak the unspeakable in society.
People don’t like to be honest enough,
We don’t like being honest with ourselves leave alone being honest with others
We don’t like to say things openly in fear of offending others.
A society that is driven by fear!
A generation that survives from validation of other people’s opinions about them!
And I think – That’s wrong.
And what is right, is right anyway!
Even if it offends people!

We are living in fear,
Fear of being in fear,
Fear of failing in the things we need.
Fear of not disappointing others.
We are living not our lives, but to prove we are better than others.
We fear failing in our careers & end up messing it all up.
We fear failing in marriages and create more hate than love.
We, we think having flaws is not okay.
We fear not being bad people and end up being hypocritical.
A generation that is judgemental.
And funny enough – people only get to judge what they see about us!

Do we turn left when there is nothing right?
Or do we turn right when there is nothing left?
Are we real to ourselves or are we deceiving ‘us’?
Are we doing the things we need to do?
Or are we doing the things people want us to do?
Are we humble or is it pride in us?
A generation that doesn’t know what they want or even how they want it.
It’s just UNSPEAKABLE!
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Am learning.
Am learning that am not perfect,
I am learning that I can’t always be perfect.
Am learning that people don’t intentionally choose to hurt others.
Maybe their first thoughts is always best of intentions but along the way tables turn.
The future is very unpredictable you know.
And the truth is,
There are people who will never change-
Even if you become what they want you to be.
Be unapologetic for detaching from them.

Am learning,
Am learning that sometimes I end up in bad situations.
And yes,
I need to stop blaming anyone for my mistakes.
I need to begin owning my wrongs.
Because no one wants to take responsibility of their messed up behavior,
We all just have an excuse,
We all have something to blame for.
Even in the situations we get ourselves in – we never lack an excuse.

I am learning that being human is being prone to mistakes.
And so blame no one,
And blame not yourself.
But take responsibility of your wrongs.
Because the truth is,
No one really ends up in bad situations,
It’s the choices we make that determines our situations.

Am learning,
Am learning about love,
Genuine love,
One that isn’t out of pity.
One that cares genuinely and not with counting favors.
Am learning while growing,
I am learning that growth comes with responsibility.
That sometimes people don’t get married for love but to prove they can be responsible.
Am learning that your person is your person, and that is understandable.
That sometimes we don’t choose love,
But it chooses us.
Yours Truly.
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Today the preacher preached,
He talked about death.
How bad it can be,
And how good it can be especially when one dies in Christ.
And he made me think of dying.
Yes!
Dying – in Christ.
But it still scares me to die though,
I think I don’t like the way people breakdown in funerals.
I don’t want people to feel the same way I felt,
When my grandma died.
Even though she died in Christ,
Her death doesn’t make me feel good.
I stood by the graveyard and lots of questions struck me.
“Is death good, because it seems to call people and they never come back?”
“Do the dead like flowers or is it the livings’ idea to need them in funerals?”
“Where do people actually go to when they die?”
And if there’s an answer to that question,
“Did someone die to confirm it or is it a belief?”

I am not sure what to say about death.
But what I know is,
Even though my pastor says sometimes death is God’s will.
Very few of us accept the will.

The preacher also talked about life,
Sometimes it’s short,
Very unpredictable,
And funny enough,-
Sometimes life even makes us prefer death.
The preacher also said of how bad life can be – especially if one makes wrong choices.
Mistakes,
I have made more mistakes from the sentiment,
“Life is too short.”
Am therefore not sure I want to make any more mistakes in life.
But as much as we sometimes make wrong choices and life becomes hard life,
It only becomes late when we die before making amends on the wrong choices.
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