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One day you wake up,
And you realize that you are no longer the same anymore,
You have embraced more of yourself – you have grown.
-Actually as you should.
You realize that Yes, you are a little messed up but happier at the same time.
You realize that you give no room for anyone – anything to place you on a pedestal.
That the things that hurt you, don’t hurt you anymore.

You get disappointed yes but not surprised.
You have expectations yes but not from anyone – anymore,
Not because you are now immune,
But because – you’ve made a choice,
A choice to have peace within you IRREGARDLESS.

And in all that you realize that your eyes have actually opened – to seeing clearly.
Less afraid to be blind too.
Less afraid to disappoint on things that are unhealthy.
But you can’t let your guard down anyhow anymore.
And you like things on the inside of your insides.

And even though that’s not what people expect you to be,
It’s what you feel better in.
Underneath your skin.

I want to confess,
Yes!
And I actually want to speak the unspeakable in society.
People don’t like to be honest enough,
We don’t like being honest with ourselves leave alone being honest with others
We don’t like to say things openly in fear of offending others.
A society that is driven by fear!
A generation that survives from validation of other people’s opinions about them!
And I think – That’s wrong.
And what is right, is right anyway!
Even if it offends people!

We are living in fear,
Fear of being in fear,
Fear of failing in the things we need.
Fear of not disappointing others.
We are living not our lives, but to prove we are better than others.
We fear failing in our careers & end up messing it all up.
We fear failing in marriages and create more hate than love.
We, we think having flaws is not okay.
We fear not being bad people and end up being hypocritical.
A generation that is judgemental.
And funny enough – people only get to judge what they see about us!

Do we turn left when there is nothing right?
Or do we turn right when there is nothing left?
Are we real to ourselves or are we deceiving ‘us’?
Are we doing the things we need to do?
Or are we doing the things people want us to do?
Are we humble or is it pride in us?
A generation that doesn’t know what they want or even how they want it.
It’s just UNSPEAKABLE!
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Am learning.
Am learning that am not perfect,
I am learning that I can’t always be perfect.
Am learning that people don’t intentionally choose to hurt others.
Maybe their first thoughts is always best of intentions but along the way tables turn.
The future is very unpredictable you know.
And the truth is,
There are people who will never change-
Even if you become what they want you to be.
Be unapologetic for detaching from them.

Am learning,
Am learning that sometimes I end up in bad situations.
And yes,
I need to stop blaming anyone for my mistakes.
I need to begin owning my wrongs.
Because no one wants to take responsibility of their messed up behavior,
We all just have an excuse,
We all have something to blame for.
Even in the situations we get ourselves in – we never lack an excuse.

I am learning that being human is being prone to mistakes.
And so blame no one,
And blame not yourself.
But take responsibility of your wrongs.
Because the truth is,
No one really ends up in bad situations,
It’s the choices we make that determines our situations.

Am learning,
Am learning about love,
Genuine love,
One that isn’t out of pity.
One that cares genuinely and not with counting favors.
Am learning while growing,
I am learning that growth comes with responsibility.
That sometimes people don’t get married for love but to prove they can be responsible.
Am learning that your person is your person, and that is understandable.
That sometimes we don’t choose love,
But it chooses us.
Yours Truly.
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Today the preacher preached,
He talked about death.
How bad it can be,
And how good it can be especially when one dies in Christ.
And he made me think of dying.
Yes!
Dying – in Christ.
But it still scares me to die though,
I think I don’t like the way people breakdown in funerals.
I don’t want people to feel the same way I felt,
When my grandma died.
Even though she died in Christ,
Her death doesn’t make me feel good.
I stood by the graveyard and lots of questions struck me.
“Is death good, because it seems to call people and they never come back?”
“Do the dead like flowers or is it the livings’ idea to need them in funerals?”
“Where do people actually go to when they die?”
And if there’s an answer to that question,
“Did someone die to confirm it or is it a belief?”

I am not sure what to say about death.
But what I know is,
Even though my pastor says sometimes death is God’s will.
Very few of us accept the will.

The preacher also talked about life,
Sometimes it’s short,
Very unpredictable,
And funny enough,-
Sometimes life even makes us prefer death.
The preacher also said of how bad life can be – especially if one makes wrong choices.
Mistakes,
I have made more mistakes from the sentiment,
“Life is too short.”
Am therefore not sure I want to make any more mistakes in life.
But as much as we sometimes make wrong choices and life becomes hard life,
It only becomes late when we die before making amends on the wrong choices.
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Over and over you will struggle to deal with people,
And up and until you learn how to know genuine people, you will continue to be in the struggle.
It’s easy to know better,
Genuine people don’t make you struggle to be someone you are not,
Infact people who are true to you help you to become the person you want to be.
And not the person they want you to be.
Yes!
They will want you to work a little extra harder not for them, but for you.
It won’t matter whether you fit into their preferences or not,
Genuine people for you, will want you to achieve the better version of you.
So if you are sorrounded by people who keep on pressuring to be someone you don’t want to be – EXIT!
Because that’s not where you are supposed to be.
I stand to be corrected if I am in anyway wrong about it.
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Genuine people don’t make you struggle to be someone you are not,

Instead of seeing red flags in your partner and backing off,
Shape them to the person you want them to be. And yes! You can’t change a whole adult but you can tell them your likes, interests and things that turn you off. Am not saying twill be easy but for partners who want things to work, there will be always a point of equilibrium. A point where both of you meet in agreement. Create a capacity of pointing out red flags without making your partner feel less. Be so connected to a point that, correcting your partner won’t come out as “being jugdy.”

There are days you will feel like walking away. And Yes! maybe to your own judgement it’s the right thing to do – but before you do that it’s important to ask yourself sober questions.

“If I walk away today does my partner see it worth it as I see it from my angle too?”

“Am I the only one who wants to walk away or both of us feel better off each other?”

“Does this involve just ‘Us’ or there’s a third-party
?”

“Am I walking away because I want this to work and it’s not or because I don’t want it to work?”

These are so many questions to consider before making an ultimate decision. And now back to where I began, “Instead of seeing red flags in your partner and backing off” – Ask yourself if you addressed the red flags and did they try changing.
Yours Truly
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Am a bit old school,
I like old classical hits,-
Khakis and vintage fabrics,
Am into ancient furniture,-
Cups that come in with saucepans and kettles,
Patterned marts and canvas paints –
I like my belt rugged and slender,
I groove better in slow beats like salsa, forro and ballads,
Satins, dolly shoes and ponytails drive me crazy,
Pearls, pocketed skirts prove me oldskool.

I like my coffee black,
My eggs scrambled,
I do my laundry by colors,
Am into hangers, wooden boxes, candles, lampshades, radio cassettes,-
Beaded bracelets and necklaces,
I like my shoes round tipped.
My tie slightly above the belt.
Walks, sunsets & late nights.
I always remember safety belts.

I like my answers Yes/No,
My mood sober,
I do my conversations closed,
My introverted sides come out extroverted,
My love line stays grafted,
I like my wounds salted before iodined,
My T-shirts collared,
My trousers hemmed,
My buttons doubled,
My shirts Chinese.
Am earthly.

Am into handshakes and limited hugs,
Undiluted gospel of the old rugged cross.

Am into love before beauty,
Beauty before make-up,
Make-up before self-esteem.
Am into love & life,
Poetry, literature and diaries.
Spoke words & written word.
Am into it all.
And all into me.

Am just me,
I don’t try to be old school,
Maybe my old-school style comes out as “Me” being just “Me”
Yours Truly.
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To my daughter before I get your mother,

To my daughter before I get your mother -
I hope you never have to fear to love
I hope.....
That the love you give will never have reasons,
-Because love that comes with reasons ends when the reasons fade.
I hope your love will be true and nothing less.

To my daughter before I get your mother -
I pray that the man who gets to love you,-
Won't love you for what he sees,
But for who you are and it all.
May he love you even before he knows anything about you.
May he make up his mind,
Before he notices your make up.
Because you deserve it.

And when your love blooms and you are all jiggy,
I hope you won't have to use social media as a standard to your relationship.
I hope....
You won't have to go for likes, views and comments to feel loved.
May your love have no other run to,
-Except the Father.....
The Son,
And the Holy spirit.

To my daughter before I get your mother -
I hope you never have to work out for your relationship to work.
I hope the man that gets to love you will know that, and more too.
May he also know a relationship can still be strong even without foundation -on your face.
I hope the man you love will know....
Things come and go and so when things are stuck,
He won't decide to go.

"A relationship can still be strong even without foundation -on your face."

To my daughter before I get your mother -
I hope the first time that you break your heart you won't die from it,
And I hope you won't need a one nightstand to get over a man.
I pray you will learn to accept that things sometimes can't work, even if we work for them.
May you never know how it feels to be emotionally humiliated.
May you stick to your day one to the GOAL.

May heartbreaks never be the reason you can't Love again.
To my daughter before I get your mother-
May your mother be wise enough to make you strong.
May you never have to hate yourself for love you didn't get.
To my daughter before I get your mother

Yours truly
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