The first time I fell in love I was 33 years,
The lady I fell for was 10 years older
She was a dynamite- (I realized that when she finally exploded)
She didn’t like to be stared at,
she always told me that stares felt insecure  but when I stared at her she didn’t look away
To her, smiles smell like heartbreaks,
Smiles were blindfolding and the last time she smiled back to a guy, It all ended up messy

The truth is I didn’t know smiles have a smell,
The only thing I know is that smiles are contagious, they affect how people behave towards us
The last time I smiled to a lady It all ended up into a different thing
A different thing that I never want to talk about not because it’s bad but because it’s sad
That’s what I think because I first smiled to her.

I wanted the love to last but she chose lust
She fired up my bullets not knowing I needed them to feel secure around her,
She never liked straight talks, In fact she said
People don’t want straight talks, people want memes,
Journalists want Sound bytes and politicians want a slogan
And poets, poets want nothing but rhymes without considering the content
It pained me she couldn’t be pinned down to talk
If only I knew i would pull the safety pin off before the grenade fell on us

For days fought, fought for answers
I was at war, at war with my peace
The only person who was supposed to be my peace was only available in pieces
She had different obligations, I wished to be her priority but she, she wasn’t ready to pin down a man who couldn’t knife his fork
She said, No one cares about emotions- we have Emojis!!

To be continued……..