Hello dear,
What am about to text you will probably shock you but the truth is it’s not easy for me either.
I love you so much and I’d say for sure you are one person I wouldn’t imagine being away from. Your personality is unique all the way to how you make your stands is one thing that gives me crazy chills.
I have known you for less than 4 years but I feel as if we’ve been together for the rest of our lives. I haven’t done much for you and yet you always make me feel like am a great person from outside. How you describe me from my dress codes to my walking styles down to how I smile. It’s so satisfying and I can’t describe it much better than you do. Lol!
Well said, the reason as to why I,m texting all these is to show you how much you’ve impacted my life. (Forgive me to say this) I know we’ve never been out for a date except on occasional basis but it feels like every day is valentine to us and roses always keep on piling up in our treasure box. Yeah! I sure have it in my brain and always have it ringing like when do we do it? When do I go playing hide and seek in the woods?. When do we swim together into the deep end? When do we do the color festivals and have the fireworks making love shapes in the sky? I’m a bit crazy when it comes to boosting my adrenaline (Having fun).I get wild and let my energy flow, from my head to my toes.
I hope you still reading closely, one simple reality is that my world has been a small heaven and I feel that I’ve met an angel in person. Am not trying to be lyrical or poetic you are one person close to my weirdness and far from my illusions. A dream and someone I thought I’d never be right for.
But on the contrary much has been happening – emotionally. I feel as if I’m straining to fit in. I mean I have stupid fears that can’t be explained by anyone. But the fears keep on creeping into my mind. I don’t know if there’s another way out. To be sincere enough- I feel lost. The truth is what we have isn’t working. My wish is for us to be happy 24/7 but I’m in a few positions to guess how it should work.
I know this sounds strange but it’s true within me. Not because you ain’t giving it your best. Not because you ain’t enough- You are more than enough. But on my side I’m not safe. And am sorry because that only means one thing. I need to find myself and feel safe because it will be an emotional humiliation to keep you stranded in my unpredictable fears. The love is strong the fears are stronger. Don’t even think of saying that am over thinking. This is my inner voice calling to the rescue of the forgotten meadows.
You ain’t leaving my heart soon because that will be more than a piercing but I have to let you be. No pressure. No strings attached. No hard feelings.
I hope someday this will make perfect sense.
Yours loving,
♥♥AS ALWAYS♥♥
